I feel fine today. I feel better than I have felt in a couple of days. I woke up in the morning thinking my day would go boring and ruthless just like it always does. But something got into me, I guess. May be it is music. I started listening to "good" music just after getting out of the bed. Then music followed with a novel. So everything is in peace. Oh yeah, I even solved question paper in which my mark was decent. Each time I solve a paper, I realise how much behind I am. That is when I take up my studies seriously. I should start solving more papers. It does wonders on me.
About my emotional stability? Well, coincidentally my close friend is also going through a you-broke-my-trust period. Not being a sadist but it really helps. I think that is what it is about. A person to cling to. I mostly avoid thinking about him. I have come to realise that I have effortlessly wasted 3 and half precious years of my life on him. I cannot waste any more. He did text me. I did reply. It is crazy how smoothly he pushes away the whole situation. Anyway, so I guess my life is okay. I just hope to walk away from this emotional trauma once for all.
The best thing about this year is I will get to travel. I have my examination centers all around south India. So I can travel without my parents complaining about how irresponsible I am. I want to the tick of the clock to move really fast. I want to get out of this place and start my new phase with no pain. And for that, I need to take in the ink of paper, thoroughly.
About my emotional stability? Well, coincidentally my close friend is also going through a you-broke-my-trust period. Not being a sadist but it really helps. I think that is what it is about. A person to cling to. I mostly avoid thinking about him. I have come to realise that I have effortlessly wasted 3 and half precious years of my life on him. I cannot waste any more. He did text me. I did reply. It is crazy how smoothly he pushes away the whole situation. Anyway, so I guess my life is okay. I just hope to walk away from this emotional trauma once for all.
The best thing about this year is I will get to travel. I have my examination centers all around south India. So I can travel without my parents complaining about how irresponsible I am. I want to the tick of the clock to move really fast. I want to get out of this place and start my new phase with no pain. And for that, I need to take in the ink of paper, thoroughly.